Today is Wednesday, January 18th, 2012. To whoever the hell is reading this, I'm sorry it's been so long. (Guess I'm mostly apologizing to myself. Haha.)
It's second semester - the last of senior year. I no longer have the same 6th block class (SEEK). I now have writer's workshop, which is fantastic as always. BUT I don't have my blog time in the hall by the cell. I have to make extra time for these things now. I haven't forced myself to do so till now. But I'm back, and there's a good reason..
These little entries have helped me through so much. They have kept me sane. They helped me to improve my character, my love for others. But since I stopped, I noticed something MAJOR missing from my life. I didn't realize how attached I had become to such a simple thing. Writing. Not poems and lyrics. Not just in writer's workshop or at home in my notebook. Blogging. About nothing. I love it. It's fantastic. I missed it so much. It was an easy, cheap form of therapy. I don't know what I'd do without it.
In fact, I'm not sure what I did without it for a while. It's 2012. My last entry was 2011. It's obviously been a while. Glad I didn't let it get away from me any further.
So that's that. This thing helps me to live my best. It keeps the crazy under control, because it's always up there. There's a trend (I talked about it in my last entry.) where I tend to forget to count my blessings. The autumn season always brings me back to my cheery, thankful state. It's become rare lately. Now it's January. My thankfulness has slipped away completely. I've been neglecting God and everything I need to do painfully.
This is why I'm changing. I want to be better. That's nothing new. But now I know I NEED to be better. People depend on me. It'd be selfish to stay the same. I need to be better for the people I love. I can't afford to disappoint anyone, or myself. I need to do what I set out to do. All of it.
To be continued. . .
